Stress To The Max

So today I was extreamly stressed out. I didn't go to work b/c my dad apparently didn't know that I was working today (I told him I work every Thursday). It didn't help that he came home pissed at my brother b/c they had to go back to school to get my brother's homework. So I felt like I was punished for my brother's mistake and then blamed for him not knowing that I was working when I told him that I was working every Thursday. He never truely apologized b/c he still doesn't think it's his fault. I HATE it when men think that they are never wrong!!!!!! Urg!!!!

I also found out that my ex is smoking again when he told me he had quit. My dad said there's nothing I can do but ask him to stop, but I still feel like I should do something or tell somebody. I just don't know what to do. (C, if you're reading this, maybe you can help... I didn't want to bring it up on the phone...)

I have a quiz tomorrow, a test, and a presentation to give. Wish me luck.

Feeling stressed and freaked out,

Tay

A Little Bit Of Crazy Madness

So I'm watching Elizabethtown, one of the weirdest, most confusing, and most random movies I have ever seen, and thinking about the day I've had (and the one my friends had). Today was one of the weirdest days I've lived. I had a planned two hour delay, so I got up at seven fifteen, which I never do, I completely forgot to eat breakfast, I didn't pack my lunch or buy it at the school cafeteria, I had a friend receive the most beautiful love letter ever written along with the most breathtaking piece of jewelry I've ever seen, I fought and then laughed with my first ex-boyfriend from last winter, I had a pizza party in Geometry, I was actually sad that our sub wouldn't be teaching us anymore, I blew bubbles with bubble gum (I don't chew gum) in Science class, I actually understood what was going on in Science class, I practiced the flute for the first time in ages, and I actually didn't care one bit that my love life is perfectly and wholesomely nonexistant. Sure, I have a crush on one of my newest guy friends, but I'm actually content with it going positively nowhere anytime soon. I'm happy being single and I'm happy being able to flirt and have fun and enjoy having no boyfriend to bring that to an end. God, what has happened to me?!

Well I guess the fact that even though this friend recieved the letter and necklace and she still doesn't know what she's going to do about it, makes me feel that my love life, for once in my life, is not on the spotlight even the tiniest bit because no one cares and hardly anyone knows about this crush of mine. And so she doesn't know if she even likes him while he's professed his love to her (which she and I discussed shouldn't even exist as he doesn't even know her) and presented her with a timeless gem and she can't even except it. I feel that I should be able to do more than just talk her through it, but maybe I just have to accept that I can't fix everything and that I should be okay with that if I'm to live my life 100% happily. I know that I'm analyzing a lot right now, but just go along with it. I get this way when I've seen a lot of movies, which I have today. I also watched You Have Mail and loved it once again. That movie makes me think so much and I can't always tell if that's a good thing or not. I guess it is, considering thinking is almost never a bad thing, but I don't know. I'm now rambling and I feel as though I should be writing something at least a little more significant than what I am.

Do you know what I realized also? The names of the two main characters in Elizabethtown are the exact same as two of my friends' names! They may like each other, but I don't really know what's going to happen there, but I think this Elizabethtown thing might be some sort of sign. I think I was supposed to see that and maybe that's the answer we've been looking for. Maybe.......

On my way to e-mail my discovery (though she'll most likely read it here anyway),

Tay

Moment of Silence

I would like all of you bloggers reading this to bow your heads for thirty seconds in recognition of Jim Park who has left Tim Does Funny Stuff (there's a link in my Friends column). I still don't know why he left, but I'm determined to find out. And for Drew who is now running the site, I wish you luck! And, again, I'm here whenever you need me!

Thank you to those of you who participated in my moment of silence.

In mourning,

Tay

Goodbye Aunt and Uncle

It's sad, but true. My Aunt and Uncle left this morning and are headed back home now. We had tons of fun though and had a Thanksgiving I don't think any of us will forget any time soon! I hope all of you bloggers had a great Thanksgiving too!

Now our neighbors are in from out of town, but I don't have to worry about homework b/c I finished it at the beginning of break! I'm free to spend all day hanging out and laughing with my friends! I love my life!

I know this is a short post, but I really have to go get dressed before my friends arrive at my door and I'm in my pj's!

Tired and a little hungry,

Tay

Welcoming Family

So here I am, waiting for my aunt and uncle from out of town to get here. We spent like two weeks preparing for their visit, but yet it feels like we're doing everything at the last minute. Ah well. I keep saying we're doing a lot for people who love us no matter what. I mean, they're family! Come on! It's not like they're going to disown us if our house has a little dust in it, but if you knew my mother, she would 'be so embarrassed' if that happened so I'm done questioning her methods.

My brother's at a friend's house and should be home soon. I went shopping w/my mother and got tons of cute clothes! I had like no long sleeved shirts, so I'm excited now that I do! And I got a bunch of cute sweaters that are really fuzzy and warm! Winter do your worst!

Oh, my brother's home. I should probably go help get ready, but I'm having a hard time comprehending that there is still more that we can possibly get cleaner than it already is. This is madness.

Wishing my sore neck would go away,

Tay

A Quick Catch Up For Those Of You Who Haven't Been Around

Okay, so today both Kyle and Jimmy came back! I didn't have to be worried anymore! And Zack didn't sit w/us at lunch, which is good, but he sat w/my other guy friends, which is bad. And I think he knows I'm friends w/them b/c I remember freaking out when Claire was over there and I had to point the table out to him. So this could be very not good. But then again, I could be overreacting, so I'll just not worry about it (for now).

In other news, I got my haircut yesterday and it looked kinda cute today w/my mini-skirt, leggings, and cute top. At least, I was called cute on the bus ride home by my friend (guy).

Also my friend *cough*Claire*cough* is getting sick of me bringing up her relationship problems, but I can't help it! It's something that lets me get my mind off of my own stupid relationship problems, which I do have right now, choose to believe it or not. I hate dwelling on my romance problems when I already think about them 24/7.

So that's pretty much it for now.

Anticipating a sub from Subway for dinner,

Tay

Stupid Geometry Project!

So I feel horrible b/c I missed a party w/all of my bestest friends in the world b/c I was working on a stupid idiotic project that I worked for three hours on. I had better get a good grade on it or I will be pissed. But I felt loved b/c they all called me and put me on speaker phone and we talked for like an hour! I felt so loved! I still can't believe I missed seeing Max, though! Apparently he's hot now, but I have a hard time believing that. To me he will always be that little kid I knew who wore a trench coat and played with little lego figures. I need a picture to prove this (Claire, that's where you come in handy!). Or his e-mail will work too.

So today I have to go get my hair done and my eyebrows waxed (NOT looking forward to that). Then I have to come home and clean a LOT. *deep sigh* I can't wait until Thanksgiving break. It can't come soon enough.

Last night I watched the saddest movie I think I've ever seen. Sadder than Titanic and that was a pretty sad movie. It was called A Walk To Remember and is currently on my list of fav movies. I highly suggest all you girls out there to watch it! It will have you sobbing by the end of it, but it's so good and romantic and OMG it was sooooooooooooooooooooo good!

Well, that's me currently! I should probably go eat breakfast now, so I'll see you later!

Still waiting for a break,

Tay

Three Ex's In A Row, Tick Tack Toe, I Win! (goodie...)

So I did it. I broke up with him. It's better this way. But the thing is, I thought he was kinda mad, so I left him alone, and then he sat with us at lunch today! He claimed he had no where else to sit, which I totally believe, but still! Out of all the places to sit, you sit at your ex-girlfriend's table?!?!?! I mean come on!!! It was weird and awkward. I can't talk about other guys while he's there which sucks, not that there are any other guys right now, but still! My friend vowed to keep me away from guys now for a while, just like I'm supposed to be doing for her, but it's not going to be an easy job! I'm already on the lookout now, and I might already see something in the distance..... On that note, I want to comment that I don't see how I can keep her away from guys when I'm trying to set her up with a friend of ours anyway! (50.5% BABY!)

So that was mainly my day..... oh and in Geometry, a weird kid brought up the subject of beer goggles (inside joke) and I about peed my pants! It was sooooooo funny!

So that's about it! I have to go do my weekend homework now so that's done with, so I'll catch you later!

Having the weirdest day ever,

Tay

Soon To Be Ex (again)

I woke up at five thirty this morning and decided not to go back to sleep. I needed time to think. My boyfriend has been getting on my nerves lately. He's being a jerk and I need out of our relationship. So I decided that I'm going to break up with him this morning. Now normally, I would take into consideration the fact that today is our three week anniversary, but because he hasn't cared about both of our other anniversary's, I'm sure he won't care about this one. God, he's annoying.

It almost seems like I'm prone to do this. Breaking up is all I know how to do. This is the third time. I've never been broken up with before and I can't seem to figure out why. In my next relationship, if it doesn't work out, I pray I don't have to break up with someone again. It's hard and scary. I would rather break down in tears from being broken up with instead of trying to figure out how exactly to end a relationship. It's really hard. Plus, there aren't many songs to listen to about how you need to break up with a perfectly good guy. I think someone should write at least one.

Wish me luck.

Needing a Dr. Pepper at six thirty in the morning,

Tay

Friends Gone MIA

Okay, so I'm kinda mad right now. My friend has been gone for two days, I have no idea where he went, and he was supposed to get a haircut over the weekend and I have yet to see it! I'm beginning to think that by the time I do see it, his hair will have all grown back! I'm also afraid that he was hit by a bus, never to be seen again. Yeah, not good. And my friend Terri (not his real name, but a nickname) went home sick, and I'm pretty sure more people were missing too. Gosh people! Where are you?!

So in other news, I had only two subjects of homework tonight but could only get one done. I hate Science. Really, I do. I suck at it. So tomorrow in A+ (study hall), I have to have my friend Nick help me or I'll never get it done and it's going to be graded.

So that was my day. Not really interesting, but it was enough that I didn't fall asleep at all. (well, okay, I came pretty close, I'll admit that) Oh yeah, and I think I aced a World Studies test and I finished my book that I've been addicted to for the past week or two. My friend (shout out to M! You know who you are!), recommended the series to me and I've been hooked ever since! Thanx again M!

So now I think I'll go and help make dinner. You know I love all of you!

Freezing all the way down to my toes (maybe I should wear more than a tank in November),

Tay

Help!

So I've got two projects to work on, but don't know if I can today. I couldn't yesterday, and I might not be able to today. Friends from out of town are over and even though we love when they visit, they take up a lot of time. I don't know how I'm going to get everything done.......

On another note, I saw our school's play last night and was so proud of all of my friends in it. I knew like twenty people in it and was so proud! To all of you who were in TMM, you guys were great! Truely full of talent!

Well, I should probably go start homework before I have to do something else.

Wondering why I'm needing a break on the weekend,

Tay

Kinda (but not really) Interesting Day

So today was kinda interesting. Hung out w/my bf a lot and was sketched by my friend during study hall. She's really a great artist.

My friend might come over tomorrow and sleep over. If she does, we will probably watch movies, eat a LOT of food, and talk a lot. About boys normally, and believe me, we find a lot to talk about on that subject. Lately especially.

Also today, I entered a strange conversation with a bunch of new guy friends. I won't say exactly what was said, but lets just say that I wished I hadn't entered the conversation. (okay all you sick minded people, get your minds out of the gutters! it was not about that! they may be guys, but they aren't that perverted!)

So that was my day today. I know, not that interesting, but at least I'm updating the site, right! Unlike some people I could mention.......

Wanting a nap,

Tay

PS; I totally aced a test I took today in science that normally I would have failed if I hadn't studied my butt off last night w/my mom's help! Thanx Mom! *hands over cookie*

Randomnessness

So I'm about to go watch the new episode of Gossip Girl, but I figured I'd post here first.

Congrats to Claire who got her website up and running! You go girl (as painfully eighties as that sounds)!

And wow, looks like I can hold down a bf for longer than two weeks without wanting to back out! Amazing! I never thought I'd live to see the day! LOL! JK!

No one was sick today, which means I didn't have a heart attack. I tend to think the worst when friends are out sick. Normally my mental images include car crashes/cancer/death of some sort. I know, I'm paranoid. Believe me, I'm very aware of the fact.

Two tests tomorrow and one quiz, so my day is pretty full! I'm surviving though and am actually making it this far into the night without stressing too much.

Wanting a vacation,

Tay