yeah, yeah, i know.

okay, hi everyone! i realize that i haven't posted in a while, but school ends tomorrow and i have a feeling that i'm going to have some time on my hands... at least for the next week, which i have off. so i'm posting an update.

first, and always most importantly in a girl's mind, my current romantic life. let's start juicy!

okay, well any and all guy problems i've posted here are irrelevant. over. done. even though they've been dead for a while, i just thought i'd re-enforce that. now, for the current situation; in march i went to state thesbian conference with a couple friends and while i was there i was introduced to a friend of a friend. he's a senior. a senior at a different high school than mine. and he's italian. let's just say yummy...

only there was a slight problem... he had a girlfriend. whom he was in love with. deeply. but they were having relationship issues. so okay, the whole trip him and i flirted and stuff and talked a bit. we exchanged numbers, end of story. he had a girlfriend and i told myself i wouldn't fall for him. that was working enormasly well.

and then she broke up with him.

he was a mess. he would call me and we would talk about it and yeah. i felt okay b/c i knew he was still in love with her. not a big deal, right? well then, you know the movie i'm doing? he tried out for it!!! and got a part!!! so i saw him. a lot. and we flirted. a lot.

i know most of you are probably like, 'wow tay, that's the perfect way to NOT fall for a guy.' but it was working. it truely was. his flirting helped me with my loneliness and my flirting helped him ease his pain.

and then after a while, our phone conversations changed. they became less about her and more about me. weird.

and then... we had our most recent read-through. lets just say that he and i were pretty much joined by the hip the whole freaking night. and we talked. a lot. i told him things. things i didn't really mean to ever tell him. and he understood. and BELIEVED ME!!! now THAT is weird.

and then, when i had to leave, he walked me to the door, i hugged him goodbye... and it was kinda like he wanted to kiss me, but i didn't let him. i said bye and ran out the door.

smooth taylor. really smooth.

so yeah. he and i have talked about it. i'm afraid of getting hurt and that's what would happen if we got together. but... we've pretty much said that whatever happens, happens. lovely.

so yeah. now i'm a bit confused and still not sure if i'm willing to let myself like him. it's all so weird.

alright, well that's my current situation. no other guy than the occasional flirt.

so now on to the topic of exams!!! i've taken three out of my five and have my other two tomorrow. i know, i know, i should be studying, but it's five in the afternoon. i have all night. and i've been studying for days. and i'm tired. and all i want to do is put in gilmore girls and fall asleep listening to their fast-paced dialogue and fantisizing about lukilei fluff...

well... i guess i'll do that later after i'm done studying. which will end up being tomorrow.

and i should call some people... including mr italian senior guy... but i hate the phone, so i guess i'll talk to people when i feel like dealing with everything.

wish me luck on my geometry and science exams tomorrow.

proudly wearing her artistic arms,

tay

Things Are Looking Up!

So I got my Science test and got a B. I guess that's okay, way better than failing, but I'm still bummed because now I only have an A in that class and not an H. I guess I'll have to work hard to get that H on my next report card then.

I also found out that I have a low A in English which is totally weird because English is supposed to be my best subject considering I love to read, I went to State Finals for Power of the Pen, and I got a perfect score on my practice Proficiency Tests last year. Weird......

So I never did get that snow day yesterday, so I'm praying hard that we get one tomorrow, or at least a late start because then my Geometry quiz will be canceled. I will send vicious vibes towards the skies tonight when I meditate after my prayers.

I'm really excited because tonight I get to go shopping with my mom to get my Christmas gifts from my gma (my grandmother; I call her Gma). This year, Gma just sent us each a check for $150, told us to spend it all on something that we'll like, don't open it or use it, wrap it up, and then bring it to her house when we celebrate Christmas (we celebrate a week beforehand so she can get down to her winter house in Florida before the holiday rush). Personally, I like this method a lot better than her guessing and trying to shop for us with our lists. This way, I know what I'm getting, I know I'm going to like what I get, and then I don't have to pretend that I like something I don't...... or at least not from her......

So right now I'm in a pretty good mood. Little homework, I just got a call from one of my bestest friends ever (Kramer, you are getting a blogspot whether you like it or not!), and I'm going shopping tonight! Overall, my life is going pretty smoothly! Let's see how long that lasts........

Enjoying life,

Tay