Whatever

Okay... so apparently I was right in thinking that no one visits my site anymore. That's kinda depressing in a way, but yet I can't help but think of how releaving that is. Now I can go back to six months ago when I could post whatever the hell I wanted. Cool.

Alright, well, as for my previous situation... it really hasn't gone away. But now I've at least figured out that I think that it's better if I don't date this guy. Maybe being friends is just what we were ment to be and that's that. I just wish we could continue getting to know each other just as friends.

The biggest thing I hate about this is that I can't help but hope that something more will happen. I know it won't, but I'm just one of those people who don't like to give up hope. Normally it's a good thing, but in situations like this, I can't stand that about me. And all this time I'm wondering if this is what I'm supposed to be doing. Am I supposed to like him or am I supposed to try really hard to get over him? I just... UHHH!!! I HATE HIGH SCHOOL!!!

*takes deep breath* Fine. Well... in other news, I've got a Flag Corps competition this weekend (Saturday) and I'm pumped! Our routine is really hard, but really cool, and even though it's not perfect yet, I know it'll be amazing. So yeah. I'm really excited!

Umm.... not much else going on now... I've got a World Studies test on Friday (which I'm not looking forward to by the way) and some sort of French project due Friday too. Kinda been a busy week, but so far I'm not in too deep yet.

So yeah. Now I'm gonna go meditate and try to get my mind centered... on something other than my frusterating situation.

Craving Sour Patch Kids,

Tay

PS; I've also missed my summer boys a lot lately and I couldn't figure out why until recently. I think it's because sitting up with the older brother on his father's truck and watching our little brothers wrestle, I felt like I belonged and nothing else mattered in the world. All of my stress and all of my problems dissappeared and instead we would laugh at absolutely nothing. We made up stuff like 'lamp sized fireflies' and 'martin bugs' and stuff like that. I mean, really stupid stuff... but it didn't matter how stupid it was. Because it was us. And with us... it was okay to be a little stupid. God I miss that beat up old truck...

Long Time, No Write

So sorry to all you bloggers out there. I know I haven't written in a while and I apologize greatly for it. My excuse is purely that a mixture of vacation, camp, and family time has caused me to become distracted. I will not promise that it will never happen again, however I will promise that if it does, I will apologize much like I am doing right now.

So, first in the news is my vacation. Our week long trip out west proved to be a little long. However, I did meet a cute cowboy, go to an awesome concert, and get to embark on a sunset horseback ride. So, overall it was a good trip, but I was very thankful to be home. I was so sick of my family and so close to pulling my own hair out that I shut myself in my room and did not open the door until my mind had slowed down to at least fifty miles per hour. I still have not finished unpacking (choose to believe it or not), but plan to as soon as I have any spare time.

Second in the news is that Band Camp has officially started as of last week. As a member of our high school's flag corps, my attendance is mandatory. We march in the blistering heat, seek shade under a large elm tree, and practice twirling five foot long flag poles until we feel our elbows will disintegrate. I do, however, get to eat lunch with my friends in a dark, airconditioned, theater, so I can't complain too loudly. I go back tomorrow and it will continue for at least another two weeks.

Third in the news is that I finally 'broke up' with this guy that I was supposed to start seeing come the first day of school. As my friend so pointedly said, 'how can you break up if you were never together?', I have no real answer other than I felt the need to make it official that I no longer liked him as anything more than a friend. So I told him, he's fine with it, and I feel 100% free now!

Fourth in the news (no, I'm not done yet!) is that my ex called two days ago wanting to see me. Why, I can't possibly imagion, but because I am currently angry with him, I made up an excuse and he hasn't called since. The whole story is that I went out with him at the end of winter and after a month or so decided that I didn't like him anymore. So I broke up with him and we planned on staying friends. That is until I find out from my friend that he had been talking horribly about me behind my back with his new girlfriend (someone I can't stand and thought he couldn't either. He lied.). So, hurt and confused, I've been mad at him ever since. I suppose I should tell him why exactly I'm mad, but I can't even find the energy to talk to him when he does call. So that's that story for all of you gossips out there.

And finally fifth in my news is that I got a cell phone! Yey! Finally! It is so cool and I love playing around on it! My father apparently does too, because when I told him off for dropping, playing with, and continuing to bug me about mine, he went off and got his own new one today, much to my family's surprise. He will never live this down, knowing my family. We tend to hold on to info like that and use it playfully against each other. Some would call it cruel, but hey, if we find it funny then we're going to do it. We do love to laugh.

So that's pretty much what has been going on lately in my life. I will try to write again soon, but am making no promises, as said before, camp starts tomorrow and with it starts another hectic week.

Full of news,

Tay

Tuesday - Free...... For Now

Well, today is one of the few days where my family has nothing planned. So, I convinced my mom and bro to take me to the movies to see Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix which I've been dying to see. I'm also going to try to convince my dad to let two of my best friends come over to hang out. We haven't seen each other in a long time and I miss them! Normally, I would say that we could go the pool, but it looks like rain outside. Ah well, we could probably entertain each other with gossip and chick flicks!

Needing a day off,

Tay

I'm Back!

I'm officially back from camping! Yay! I had fun, but the whole trip was longer than it needed to be. Next time, I think we should spend two nights tops, and leave the dog with a neighbor. It feels so good to be home! I showered for a good forty five minutes as soon as I entered the doorway. It felt so good! Now I can stay up as late as I want and sleep in as late as I want! It feels great to have these freedoms again!

I had flag corps practice tonight too, and had tons of fun! Our captain is back from vacation, and put a smile on all of our faces! We were having a great time trying to work on the new moves and our hands were black by the end of practice. It was worth the five minute scrubbing I had to do when I got home!

Feeling good,

Tay

Goodbye Boys, Hello RV

Well, the boys have officially said their goodbyes. It's sad, but we're keeping our chins up and hoping that they will visit sometime before next summer. On a brighter side, my other neighbor's grand kids will be in next weekend. They visit a lot more often, but we still miss them also.

Tomorrow morning, my mother, bro and I all leave to go camping with my grandmother in her RV. An hour drive to her house and then three and a half hours after that. Fun, right? At least it's something to occupy our time! We're staying for three nights, so it will be exciting, but we will all be ready to get home. My dad can't stand small places, so he will be at home, caring for our dog and our neighbor's rabbits (whom we're looking after while they're at a wedding for the weekend). We'll miss him terribly, but it will be great to get out of the house. I need a little change in scenery once in a while.

Trying to forget about the boys,

Tay

Summer Madness

Our nightly firefly catching has evolved into rousing Uno Attack games! Much more fun, seeing as fireflies began to lose their spark (no pun intended). It's been great seeing these guys again, but I'm going to miss them a lot when they leave Friday morning. I hate it when friends go away. Especially since we won't see these boys until next summer! It just makes me sad.

I miss my other friends too, but I hardly have any time to see anyone. Between my flag corps practices, my lifeguard training, and my family's plans, I hardly have enough time to dress in the morning, let alone plan a gathering of friends! My mom, bro, and I are all going camping with my grandmother until Monday morning. Then the next weekend, I'm going to a local Border's for the midnight release of Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows with friends. Then the next morning, I'm going on an overnight camping trip with a bunch of friends. Then the weekend after that, my family and I are leaving for our week long vacation out west.

For those of you out there who have no plans and are complaining about how bored you are, count your blessings. You could end up like me; feeling as if summer is no better than school. Worse even because of the heat! But I'm thankful that I have so much to do. It means that I actually have people who care about where I am and who I'm with! There's always a bright side to everything!

Feeling overwhelmed,

Tay

Fireflies

Was up 'till ten thirty last night catching fireflies with my bro and our neighbor's grandkids (two boys, one older, one younger). We had fun and shared a lot of laughs, which was good, considering we see these boys once a year. They always visit for a week in the summer, though, and every year we spend almost every night catching fireflies. We live close to a forest, so our yards tend to be filled with them any time after eight. Looking forward to doing it again tonight!

I also power walked with my mom today, which was fun. It not only gave us time to talk, but we also got some exercise in, which my mom claims to need (she doesn't). How often do all of you fellow bloggers exercise? Once a week, or once a month? Come on, tell the truth!

Feeling good about myself,

Tay