Happy Christmas Eve!

I'm off to church! The one night of the year we actually go and I am super excited! A good friend of mine that now goes to an all boys private school goes there, so I'm hoping to see him there! (yeah Claire, it's our french buddy from homecoming) I feel pretty weird though because I have to wear this brown skirt and this cream colored sweater. I like the outfit, I just don't like wearing stockings. They itch and are very irritating.

Anyway, just so all of you are aware, tonight is also a full moon, so be on the look out for strange occurrences, such as unexplained behaviors and small miracles. I just wish all of these clouds weren't covering it up. I was so looking forward to stepping out of my church and seeing that full moon the whole ride home... ah well. Sometimes things don't always go as planned, right? So we just have to role with the punches. I also can't wait to feel the great vibes I get from my church. It's like every time I walk into that building, I feel safe and more relaxed. I hope that once I move out of Ohio after graduation, I'll find a town that makes me feel that way too...

I hope all of you are enjoying your Christmas Eve's and that you have a safe and happy Christmas tomorrow!

Feeling that wondrous Christmas feeling,

Tay

Current Situation

Well, we're leaving soon. I told my brother about my plan and he didn't understand why. I laughed and just explained that I thought it was time for a change. Plus, making people feel guilty can be fun.

By the looks of the wind and snow outside, I say that we'll have a fun time getting there! Ah well. With my I Pod and my current daydream, I will survive, even if we're stuck in thirty miles of traffic.

I'm going to laugh, though, when my friend Gabe calls in the middle of dinner and all of a sudden, Paramore's 'Misery Business' starts blasting from my back pocket. He always has a knack for calling at the worst times. Either that, or it will be Claire or Kramer. Anyone actually would be appreciated, as we will most likely need some sort of conversation topic. LOL, I'm just kidding!

Feeling temporarily carefree,

Tay

Holiday Surprises

Today's the day. That 'wonderful' day in which I have vowed to be sugary sweet. Ug... Maybe I can just continue being my anti-social self... yeah right. Me and anti-social really don't go well together, and every time we get together, it gets harder and harder to stay shut up. Most of the time I just want to scream at them and smack a couple people, but I bottle it up and just continue either writing or sketching, just to take my mind off of it all. This year I'm going to leave my notebook, sketch book, and pencils at home. This year I will help distribute the gifts without fighting with my idiot cousin, I will help make dinner, and I will smile as though I know something that everyone else doesn't. My parents might ask why I'm smiling so, but I'll just respond that it's the holidays and that everyone should be smiling. Lets see them respond to that.

Determined to confuse people,

Tay

Getting In That Christmas Mood!

So after dinner tonight, I found out that we were planning on visiting our family friend who used to babysit my younger brother. I love going over there and they always are so nice. Every year, we give them a cookie plate and they give us small gifts in return. I'm super excited because I got a new cross! I needed one and was half tempted to ask for one for Christmas in the first place, but decided against it because I didn't want anyone to feel awkward about buying it! So I'm wearing it now and I absolutely love it! I don't ever want to take it off!

They were super nice, as usual, and we found out that her daughter is expecting a baby girl in February! I can't wait! I absolutely love babies and hope they ask me to babysit sometime.

Then, after visiting them, the four of us went and drove around looking at Christmas lights. We do this every year and we always look forward to it. My dad always plays odd Christmas music and we laugh and comment on all of the beautiful houses and the odd ones too. This year, we've noticed a depressing decrease in number of lights. It's like no one had enough time to celebrate the holidays this year. To me, that's just sad.

So that's my current mood. In twenty minutes it will probably change, so stand by!

Loving the holidays more and more,

Tay

Delayed Celebration

So apparently Gma's house is tomorrow instead, which is great because then today we get to do more shopping. It seems that this year, we knew that Christmas was coming soon, so it didn't sneak up on us, we just didn't have a lot of time to spend shopping and wrapping. So we're doing it all pretty last minute, even my mom who's been known to finish her Christmas shopping in July.

I'm pretty happy that all of my shopping is done. I still have to make cards, but I can do that tomorrow while I'm resisting the urge to pull my hair out of my scalp. Today I know my mom and I are going to be hunting down this unbelievably cool present for my dad, which will take at least two hours. Then I have to wrap more gifts from my dad to my mom. I'm not complaining about it, but I think he should help! Or maybe not now that I think about it...

I also have library books that I should probably read sometime before the end of break. And probably before Christmas, considering I asked for pretty much all books.

Anticipating a good read this Christmas,

Tay

On A Happier Note

Okay, so first I would like to give the biggest shout out in the history of forever to Jim! That was the sweetest thing I've ever heard! Thank you so much for always making my day! You truely always know how to make me smile! How do you do it?

So on the subject of my last post, I think everything will be okay. I know it will be a rough road getting to that point, but I truely believe that everything will be okay now. Things are slowly beginning to look up.

I got to wrap Christmas presents today for my mom and was super excited about it! All while I was little, I always loved wrapping presents more than opening them. I can't say the same about my brother who is always poking and pinching all of the wrapped goodies under the tree, not only his own, but everyone's in the family.

Tomorrow is Gma's Christmas where I see my mom's side of the family before she goes back to Florida. Unfortunately this also means that I have to see my uncle and his family who we can't really stand to be around. Ever since he and my mom stopped talking, he hasn't given two hoots about me or my brother, so I can't stand to be around him. But I got this idea that I'm not going to be my usual anti-social self that I normally am around them, but instead I'm going to be a sugary sweet, social, Christmas angel! Lets see them respond to that!

So because Christmas is my absolute favorite time of year, I'm determined to have a cheery season, even if it means forgetting about all of the problems I'm supposed to be working out and dedicating myself intirely to preparing for Monday and Tuesday.

Determined to make these holidays happy,

Tay

Real Tree = Real Tears

This year my dad insisted on a real Christmas tree, which I'm totally against. For years we've been using a pretty life-like fake tree which I enjoyed helping to put together. Then last year, the top broke, so it was lopsided and now we didn't think we could use it anymore. Well this year my mom thought she had fixed it and that we might be able to use it, and I was excited until my dad insisted on a real tree b/c he didn't think the old one would work.

Downsides to real trees; - Waste of trees (and they wonder why our environment is bad...)
- Awful smell that gives me a headache
- HUGE mess
- Harder to decorate

Upside to real trees; NONE!!!

But even with all of my whining and complaining, he still went out and got one. I haven't even seen it yet and I already hate it. Grr....

On the bright side today, my mom's friend is coming over and we're decorating Christmas cookies! We always have so much fun with that every year! And after that, Kramer and Claire are coming over!

I guess the good out-weighs the bad in this post, but I still don't like that tree....

Getting a headache just thinking about that stupid thing,

Tay

One Act Excitement

I am oober, oober excited! Claire and I are trying out for Winter One Acts at our school! This is the first time I've done anything like this, but I feel like I'm finally doing something in highschool that I'm sure about, besides Flag Corps! This feels right. And even if I don't get a big part, or even if I don't get a part at all, I know that this is something that I truely want to do and might actually be good at, so I'm giving it my all and am planning on going out for the spring play as well now! Claire and Kramer get to come over tomorrow to practice and because he's going to be one of the directors, he will get to help us expect what we're going to face on Monday in our auditions. I'm, again, oooooooober excited!!

I'm also in a great mood because my mom has been baking my favorite Christmas cookies all day and I'm going to get to pig out on them tonight! That, and now the whole house smells like freshly baked cookies, and not just the kitchen, the whole entire house!! Yum!!

Excitedly awaiting Monday (one of the only times I will EVER say this),

Tay